Archives for the month of: November, 2016

If you knock down all the walls and you allow people to communicate all over the world you get a lot of porn and a lot of racism. 

Can a divided America heal? Is an interesting Ted Talk that actually appears to come down to how people feel and how we label our feelings, e.g. Disgust, in the public forum. 

The idea that we’re geographically moving to be closer to people who have similar political and ethical views is also something I’m going to look into 👀

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I’m so soft at the moment my hearts getting warmed by Jamie O drinking a tequila, chatting and giving me christmasy ideas. 

Couldn’t sleep but couldn’t wake up. One thing for it: getting out on two wheels. 

However long it’s been is always too long. 

I wonder if my dads wisdom of how very lucky we are to be relatively fit and healthy might make me get out more now that our mortality has been highlighted and slapped us all in the face. 

Every day’s a school day.

I thought I was okay but I’m not. For some reason telling someone I wasn’t okay made me feel closer to okay. 

A few days feels like a lifetime ago. 

I’ve been gritting my teeth hard and now my mouth is aching and my gums are bloody and I need to spend some time with my thumb in mouth. 

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The only way to get a smile on this face today was wearing someone else’s hoody that gives me the good vibes and walking that disobedient cutie pie dog. We met a little Spanish dog called Alma who looked like a little deer. 

Resolving to change the way I operate day to day. 

Realising that the way so many people are using social media is just another Kansas City Shuffle. 

While you’re all looking left(absorbed in your phone-not really living), to the right, your life is passing you by and decisions are being made that you’re either numb or blind to but that affect you. 

The same reason I tried to not partake in the overuse of alcohol for those few years and the reading I did around it rings true with this general obsession and dedication to an often empty activity. 

Going to try to use it only for my benefit. Spend more time writing for myself (the above is a diary) and verbalising more general less personal ideas here when I’m not otherwise engaging with my life and work and the lives of those I love. 

Everything forever 

WHENEVER I DEVIATE FROM THE PLAN OR I GO AGAINST MY INSTINCTS I AM WRONG. EVEN IF IT EXPOSES MY EMOTIONS OR IF THERE ARE OTHER LOGICAL ARGUMENTS AGAINST MY INSTINCTS THEY ARE ALWAYS WRONG WITH HINDSIGHT. 
Live and Learn. Show love. 

Admiration is a difficult feeling to be sure you’re portraying correctly. Without wanting it to lose its weight by overdoing it but at the same time trying to find some sense that your projection of it towards someone else has landed and isn’t too subtle. 

The other problem with admiration is that although one may feel it so strongly for another, that other may not value that admiration as much as intended or enough to pick them up. 

Another issue may be that if one feels other things towards that person they admire it may appear to undermine that admiration. Say… finding someone physically attractive- if they know you feel that way will they see this attraction as belittling how much you respect their values and fundamental human beliefs?