When I spoke with TFH on Friday he said he’d started his week on a back foot and it all seemed to blur as if all he’d been doing is working and sleeping. I wanted to be able to give him some extra hours in his days.
At that stage I was only two shifts in but they’d been fairly busy. Now, with two to go, I feel exactly the same.
Last night a lot happened late in the shift and I did an extra 3 hours to tidy everything up after a little adrenaline spike. Every shift has been a touch longer than planned.
I’d wanted to ride today but didn’t sleep as long as I needed and had committed to walking the little dogs. I’ve felt so low on everything that makes me feel bouncy, that I didn’t really want to ride, despite the beautiful weather. I’ve been delicate and appreciative of the softer side of people. After last night and seeing how some people are simply abhorrent and a danger to others and police (and probably ,but least importantly for these people, themselves) I’m looking forward to relaxing into the arms that hold me (both literally and metaphorically).
This evening I’ve had a little sleep and I feel slightly more ready for the next two nights. The new walk I took the dogs on was substantial, full of sun and is the 4th walk of this set. I realised it’s okay if all I can manage is work, sleep and dogs.
It has been a blur but for a few hours each day I’ve not worn uniform or been horizontal and I’ve been something free from the weight of the week.
There’s been a lot that I want to write about and a lot that I want to read and hopefully I’ll get around to some of that soon. But today has been about preparation before a busy week or so. 
turn the season 